At Lunch

Speaking of Christian Liberty today I happened to mention a phenomenon the people down here are going to be dealing with more and more. They’re going to face people coming who don’t want to participate in their Sunday school programs however spectacular or moribund. Paul Washer pushes the family integration wheelbarrow and Paul Washer can preach in Spanish. Reformed people are generally keen on him, and so it is a factor that will influence our congregation.

I don’t have kids, so I have no dogs in that race; if they want to put on a Sunday school, fine, and if not, better. I’m just pulpit supply, for various reasons, the main one being I have no pastoral concern whatsoever. I certainly do not want to get programmatic with them and enact changes I’m not going to be around to nurture, but I’ll support any parent who is not desirous to have their kid in the SS. So at lunch the thing came up.

They seem to defend the SS idea on the grounds that there are specific bits of information that the kid needs to get at its own level. That there is a narrow target to hit, and so if the kid is in the adult class, it is an entire waste of time because it will probably miss the information. That is dogma.
I think that’s pretty condescending, but I don’t have kids. Never having been a kid myself, as it turns out, it doesn’t do much good to try to argue from that angle.

But that is the heard to the matter, isn’t it? They think that the point is to communicate information and as long as the kid gets the datum, God’s purposes have been achieved. If that is the case, now I am armed. Because there is something infinitely greater than teaching them some obvious truth apparent even to a hardened Sunday school teacher; reverence for God’s word and for God’s things and for God’s ways, the challenge of an adult vocabulary (little love of language here—I wonder why), principles about life that apply from the cradle to the grave and perhaps maybe even beyond . . . maybe . . . you know?

They don’t think of it that way so much that one person was convinced that for people who keep their kids out of the SS, the moving factor would be the results. What are the results? She wanted to know. As if they never came without intimidating statistics to remove their kids from the SS. Speaking of results, they are really, really worried about their young people after all these years of age-targeted data in a SS program set up pretty much to cover all the Bible from nursery through high school. No, though I wish I had thought of it then, I didn’t turn the tables on her and ask her what the results were for what had been done all these years.

I do like what another pastor in the area does. They ask him to do stuff with the youth and what does he say? Fine, parents bring your young people, and stay, and I’ll teach you all the Bible says about parenting and families.

Things I Have Learned

Who are the strong and who are the weak in the faith? The strong are the more mature, it seems to me. I had a friend once tell me the strong had better understanding. Perhaps, but it is not knowledge alone. Knowledge puffeth up but charity edifies. And it is the insight of love that gets past the superficial. I think the hangup of the one who is weak in the faith is in dealing with appearances and phaenomena and not getting to the inside of things. Why is it that in two out of three major passages on the theme of Christian liberty Paul mentions that God’s commands are summed up in loving? Why does he come to that unifying point on the inside of all the particular manifestations? It is an understanding, a more fundamental understanding, but one achieved not by a fragmentary knowing about, but by knowing the heart of the matter.

I am going to mention that on Sunday, and if anybody afterward is intrigued, I am going to recommend they read Plato.

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I’ve been preaching from Romans 12 forward. Never thought I’d do something like that, but I was so tired of doing long book studies after Luke and Genesis that I could not contemplate anything else. So I’m in paraenesis and the struggle there is to make it interesting. I still can’t even figure out how to make an outline for my sermons without killing them dead. Which is why I prefer narrative, because the emotional climax is so easy to find, work toward, and be the place where the applications are made, before you wind up the story. I’m enjoying Daniel.

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Daniel, now, was picked to make me get into eschatology. I suppose I really never was much of a dispensationalist to begin with. Hard to be, when it has no positive associations for one. I was established in progressive dispensationalism by witnessing one Burgraff attack it. I knew I wanted to be whatever he was not, but I didn’t realize at the time that I could be a covenant theologian (the rigidities I have shed over time—I didn’t even realize I didn’t have to be a fundamentalist then). One of my worst dispensationalist teachers was always complimented for being consistent. Where is the appeal in that? I was always embarrassed for him that the best thing these people could say was that he was consistent. He was a nice chap too and was rather fond of above average buffets—several of which he treated us to more than once.

Speaking of that, the hermenutical differences between dispensationalists and the people of God (that’s a joke, for those with too literal a hermeneutic) are set forth in a book by Peter Masters called Not Like Any Other Book. He’s not the clearest, most scholarly, or even the most precise; in fact, he’s sometimes aggravating, but he does understand the difference between how Calvin interpreted, how Spurgeon interpreted and how the dispensationalist interprets the Bible. He’s not into single meaning, not into abandoning allegory, not into limiting parables. He’s not into irresponsible hermeneutics either . . . much. I love him, mostly.

Not the first author I usually turn to, and certainly not an evangelical celebrity author, but we have a book dealer here who’s friends with Masters’ daughter and gets fresh translations sent direct; which is why I have ended up reading two of his books, neither of which I have found all that great but both of which have been useful for conversations, for starting a bit of thinking. The bookseller here is going to write the daughter and ask her to please tell her dad to be a bit more precise and careful in the future. We’ll see how that goes.

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You know, I wonder about that. I wonder about the value of the chap who gets a bit of thinking started. He doesn’t get it right, he doesn’t even do that great a job, but he puts his finger on the issue or at least eliminates possibilities unintentionally so that somebody after him comes up and reaps the benefits of seeing at last what the problem is. It is part of the historical process of things, it seems to me.

It happens to you all the time when you know how to teach and you’re listening to somebody else do it. With the benefit of that person’s study you can sometimes move ahead of the guy as you listen to him speak on a subject. I don’t doubt it happens when I teach to other people. At least I hope so, sometimes it is my only consolation.

The Daily Clog

So how are things here in Bogotá?

The rain is washing away roads and flooding more than usual. No doubt that is due to global warming. In an effort to control it, can all of you stop flushing toilet paper down the toilet and instead please just throw it in the waste paper basket?

Do you know that Colombians actually think that toilet paper thrown in the toilet will clog it up? So they throw it in a waste paper basket which I assume they have the cleaning lady empty on a regular basis.

But maybe it helps with global warming somehow. It has to have some benefit, it seems to me.

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We went out into the countryside yesterday and drove over a bit the rain had clean washed away. They’d trucked in a bunch of dirt and thrown it down to re-establish the road for the time being, but it was too squishy still for one dump truck. It got stuck; blocked a lane; and so we had to take turns.

I saw one of the road crew there present–presumably to direct traffic as each side took its turn–throwing rocks into the squishier parts of the road. Why not–one had to think–add toilet paper to firm it up and lock it into place?

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Some of the congregation seem to be trying to bring me back in as an option for the pastorate on some kind of technicality. We had the sort of congregational meeting largely characterized by feelings of amazed frustration and picking at the nit of the technicality. I am glad to say it did not work–sad illusion anyway. I wish it had not been characterized as it was in the realm of feelings.

They think the problem is that the leadership somehow, that the pastor from the other church who is overseeing things for us has handled things badly and screwed the chances up. He has in the sense that he put me in there at all to begin with. Bad, silly move. But not in the sense of being uncooperative, of somehow scaring me off, or anything of the kind. In fact, it all helps to close the door most firmly to this silly idea entertained by many that somehow I am something other than a third-rate Science Fiction writer.

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Not that there’s a chance of me staying. I’m done with the third world and I’d like to be back in time to vote Obama’s third-world administration out of office. The possibility of the pastoral office has passed over me. I have given my best effort to living other people’s dreams, and done it with a good conscience as to my effort. All the congregation was pleased and many still want to vote me in. (These crazy Latinos also like Obama, if that gives you anything to judge by.) There is something in the law about double jeopardy, and I am sticking to my guns. No sir, no way, nohow.

I’m working, individually, on getting people to quit calling me pastor. I just got invited to join some kind of Spanish Gospel Coalition blog thing and I wrote back to tell them that I’m not a pastor. Maybe they’ll want me for their blog effort anyway. I’ll have to tell them I’m an aspiring Science Fiction writer, or else, what that I will probably soon be the employee of a temp agency, again.

And then we’ll see how much of the culture of celebrity is clogging their toilet.

A Reader’s Library

Anybody with a sizeable collection of books has had the experience of some twit of a non-reader looking over the collection with no real discernment and wondering if the owner has read them all. The tone–or something about the way–in which the question is expressed seems to imply that the best answers would be either a Yes or an Almost.

Of course, that isn’t the answer they get, at least not from this reader. They get a No. One doesn’t acquire all one’s books with a view to reading them in the immediate future: that isn’t the way things are done. It isn’t the way things are done because all books are not read the same way. Certainly some are read immediately, especially if you’re the kind of reader who never has and never will use lists to read by. But some are acquired with a view to filling up a spot in a life that would drag on tediously should one ever run out of things to read, say a year from the day, or five, ten or twenty. And yes, there are people who worry about running out of good books to read and tend to hoard.

It does puzzle me to know there are people who read by lists, because I do not find that I understand when I read strictly under compulsion. I read well when I am interested, but not so well when I am compelled. And I have, somewhere, a quotation from Dr. Johnson corroborating the general idea too.

To what is this due, this triumph of desire over duty? One doesn’t read all books similarly, for one; and for another, there are seasons to reading. The true, hard-core, binge-reading reader is not a person with a simple insatiable desire for books of any sort whatever. Is the true, hard-core, binge-eating eater a person who shoves food down his throat indiscriminately, or does said person sometimes crave chicken, sometimes pizza and chips, from time to time a vegetable? I think it must be the latter. I think a person for whom eating is a true pleasure, to relinquish some of the exaggeration, has seasons to his eating, he enjoys things severally and in variety: today an omelet, tomorrow a potato. Would one not be surprised if said person’s refrigerator were on the whole kept always empty?

Which is why an avid reader has a sizeable collection of books on hand, many of which are unread and must remain so for years; various: for the various seasons of desire, for the various ways of reading, for savoring for the first time or reading again after a sufficient pause.

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Note on something else that occurred to me: it ought to be considered that I am not speaking of the personal library of one who does research which must sometimes grow exponentially. When the non-reading twit comments on such a library in such obtuse insinuations it is also impertinent because he is telling someone who knows how to do what he does what to do. That is the philistine streak, I’m afraid.

Division of Heart

Right now the rain is coming down in random drops. It has been diminishing for the last six hours since the downpour started. We get a torrent which tapers off into a long soaking rain which then tapers off into a random sort of drizzle and may continue indefinitely. Downstream from us is a world of water. We had a good 24 hours of rain last week and are probably set to see more.

It is times like this when I never want to leave. I can walk along the wet streets and buy a whole chicken and enough potatoes to go along for not a whole lot. What’s better than having cold chicken on hand? Not that most of you realize how good the potatoes that accompany the chicken here are, but what indeed is better than those? The hot sauce that they freely bundle in? And how many other places in the world can I go and get so much rain? And with the jungle in the city’s subconscious lurking . . . the jungle and hot weather growth and swollen rivers in the loud darkness only a lurching bus-ride away . . . who could ask for more?

Not the cleanest city, not the most organized, but still full of city people, you know? City people are my people, after all. I am convinced that living in the country is not something I am even keen ever to try. And where else do you get coffee so abundantly and cheaply? The city is a walking city, full of interesting places and all kinds of coffee shops. Not that there’s a good variety of coffee, and that’s something I miss.

That’s what makes the consideration much more difficult. Not only the coffee, but the books. The availability here is really dismal. One makes do, one has one’s own excellent library—and let me tell you, mine is—one finds surprises, one even reads in the deadly Spanish language. But one longs for the Anglophone world a lot, an awful lot, and living speech and real readers who binge and read in measurable quantities. And one remembers the used book stores of the USA. And one thinks of the restaurants with atmosphere, the sausage there, the hash browns, the pizza, the chips, the pickles.

I realize that once I am not here, the things here that were convenient and congenial will rise like remorseless wraiths to taunt and torment me. And I will truly sorely miss the green, green mountains.

Fragments of an Afternoon

Since last night, rain. The city woke grey under it and it did not relent till afternoon. The sun appeared, the clouds returned, soon on the concrete with that jungle-overgrown look that runs through parks, will be dark again. Already the rain is tentative on the window.

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Whatever you may say about the people of Bogotá, you must say they are city people. I hate them most of the time, pallid and artificial, but they are city people and so my people. Soft in a way, but also tough and I rejoice in them. Hurriers.

This is no collection of suburbs; this is a great, sprawling, decaying, pulsating, infested city full of buying and selling. Mechanics lounge covered in motor oil waiting for the next taxi to break down.

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I love the weather here, most of the time. I miss seasons, but I love the rain. I love these long soaking rains, the gladness under them of vegetation is my gladness too. The warmth of lights, the moss on cracked sidewalks, the jungle in the distance, in the background, in the unconcious and often out of it in this city I would miss. In the distance sleep the marshes, teeming with disease, waving in the air a lazy palm. In a thousand little shops across the city mounded fruit and vegetables sit and shine, ripen and rot.

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Sometimes the clouds come down to the rivers, the torrential tropical muddy fishfull rivers of this country. Then they hide the mountains, and the jungles and there is only the rushing as of time passing hurriedly through the moment of distilled eternity, the silent fish. Sometimes those clouds come down on the city and it is ghostly and time is not to be seen, only a golden haze where light spills into eternity.

When in the chilly morning of such a fog you smell the bread, then you will know that you are almost home. But not before.

Reading III

Reading David Jones. Wish I had The Anathemata and In Parenthesis, but someday I shall. Need to give him a second reading, but just the sound is enjoyable and highly instructive. Curiosly insistently polyglottal. Conjures up place rather strongly. I’m going to get a story out of it before it’s all over.

Reading Robertson Davies. He can make the oddest things compelling. Rather bingeing on him, in fact, because I’d gotten Anthony Powell after finishing Carpenter on The Brideshead Generation. Started Powell on the bus, but then I glanced into Davies and there was no looking back. Well, I’ll soon be back to Powell. You know, I must have read, by now, the first three books in ADttMoT two or three times. I haven’t made it through yet.

Read the Pope on Henry VIII to my wife for a while today as well. Good day of reading.

Been reading a bit on the Derbyshire episode too. A curious thing. Taki’s is racy, to put things mildly. A sign of the times, I think from time to time, and then I go back to see if Gavin McInnis has something new. Libertarians, you know, give a Prometheus award for SF that beats their drum.

Poetry

Poetry, at all times, is not merely descriptive and imitative in the Aristotelian sense. It is always also creative; creative indeed in the sense of making thing that were not there before—and the derivation of the word ‘poetry’ point to just this kind of ‘making’. But it is creative also in a profounder and more elusive sense. Poetry heightens and cultivates the creative element that is experience itself. For experience is not in the impressions we receive; it is in making sense. And poetry is the foremost sense-maker of experience. It renders actual ever new sectors of the apparently inexhaustible field of potential experience.

-Erich Heller

A, a, a, DOMINE DEUS

I said, Ah! what shall I write?
I enquired up and down.
(He’s tricked me before
with his manifold lurking-places.)
I looked for His symbol at the door.
I have looked for a long while
at the textures and contours.
I have run a hand over the trivial intersections.
I have journeyed among the dead forms
causation projects from pillar to pylon.
I have tired the eyes of the mind
regarding the colours and lights.
I have felt for His wounds
in nozzles and containers.
I have wondered for the automatic devices.
I have tested the inane patterns
without prejudice.
I have been on my guard
not to condemn the unfamiliar.
For it is easy to miss Him
at the turn of a civilisation.

I have watched the wheels go round in case I might see the
living creatures like the appearance of lamps, in case I might see
the Living God projected from the Machine. I have said to the
perfected steel, be my sister and for the glassy towers I thought I
felt some beginnings of His creature, but A,a,a, Domine Deus,
my hands found the glazed work unrefined and the terrible
crystal a stage-paste . . . Eia, Domine Deus.

David Jones, in The Sleeping Lord and Other Fragments (1974)

Nat is Back!

At Remonstrans. I wish dissidens would write whole novels of this!

Bring Back Paganism

I just got a story accepted. It will be published in the summer solstice 2012 issue of Eternal Haunted Summer.

It will also come out in The Shining Cities: An Anthology of Pagan Science Fiction. They hope to release the volume in August, but submissions are open until June in case any of you have any pagan science fiction lying around you have not yet found a market for. The proceeds from the anthology will be donated to charities in the name of the gods.

Pick Your Guru

We are guided by Jesus’ teaching and life as described in the foundational gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Thomas.

You’d almost think that was carefully crafted bizarre. I love how out of nowhere you get that unanticipated comma before John, then the ‘and’, and then the ‘Thomas’. I’m going to plagiarize it and substitute for ‘Thomas’, Edwin, and slap it onto Kameldeerguard’s intergalactic cult.

Then there is this guy who thinks the problem with philosophers is that they’re not following what they “just know” at the gut level like common folks. My gut seems to be telling me that now I have something objective to base Brother Anopheles on.

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