What I’m Reading

The velocity approximation given by the algorithm is m1 = n1lim, where n1 = Nep1/Ndt1. By the nature of the counting, Nep1 can be any whole number while Ndt1 is a natural number. If the velocity is higher than lim, there are more Iep impulses than dt impulses, so Ndt1 is always one; on the contrary, if the velocity is smaller than lim, there are more dt impulses than Iep, so Nep1 is one. Possible values for n1, when the velocity is high, are 1,2,3,…, and for low velocities are ½, ⅓, ¼,….

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Helping one of our deacons who is in Memphis studying robotics to proofread a paper the general language of which seems to be English, when I can make it out.

From the Space Opera

Vulture Gryphus

The winter wind
over the snow
and yellow clumps
of grass
went whispering
and at the cave
the shaman sat
entranced.

Meditating
deep within
and in the power
of gods
of shapelessness
and crooked forms,
smashed concrete
and bent rods.

Intoxicated
by the thought
of those he served
set free,
the condor watched
the winter wind
and muttered
dismally.

Genesis 49

So what does Jacob do in his final words: bless or prophecy? Does he know these things will be or does he wish it? What is the relationship of these two activities? What relationship exists (relationships exist?) between a future tense and an imperative mode?

Worth thinking about at any level you want (especially in English where the future tense seems less a tense and more the function of a modal verb). In Genesis 49, the text starts out saying he is going to tell them what will come, it ends up saying he has blessed them.

How much of what Jacob says is desire and how much what he says is what he has seen, truly seen? Is there that much of a difference between faith and desire in the heart of a believer? Is that what Jacob has finally learned: to match them up?

Jacob has learned both to be in earnest and to rest. He has desired and cared, and now that he is content at last, carefree and even feeling more blessed than all his forebears; has he indeed learned to align faith and desire? Does it seem they can be misaligned somehow? His poetry has moments in which it is playful enough, matched exactly to what God will do.

Sed Deus disponit . . . homo ludit, yes?

Unexamined Anticipations

We here are all anticipation. Of what? Of real restaurants again in USA. Of the comfortableness of chairs there, sofas there, life there so much more congruent. The falling into a seat. Of cold, I so anticipate the bite of cold, and larger cars (no 8 people in a subcompact vehicle) and clean, comfortable seats and accelerating meaningfully. Houses that creak there and central heating, the sounds, you know, of blowing hot air, of the water ticking through the pipes, of a house bearing its people. I look forward to bathtubs so much.

Sizes there–of recliners, of glasses, of portions and people: oh waddle me up a fat one! The flora there, with its way–I hope to see a lot of the sycamores, the forlorn shrubbery, the withering leaves tucked away, the whispering reeds on the banks of a lake. And I hope to see much of the muddy Olentangy river, its banks NOT lined with trash and its course not paved in concrete. The streets there with just dust and not garbage, the garbage not strewn on the sidewalk but in cans, the bums so respectable there with their cell phones and handwritten signs. The smell of a bookstore again–here they seldom smell like bookstores, and the second-hand ones are grubby off-putting neglected, not the friendly dust and smell of paperbacks the summer has cooked.

Oh the sounds there. Classical music in public places, tastefully low other music, not intrusive, not usually cramped there, not generally latin forsooth. Houses that seal, coffee shops sealing the smell which so colors their warmth; here doors never seal nor windows and all of life is in the open air like fruit. The wind when the snow is beginning to give way, the trickling of it, the quiet you get in the suburbs, the mournful sound of a train in the night. The neatness of laws there, the fact that there’s wildlife in the vast suburban cities’ circles: squirrels and chipmunks, raccoons and herons and even the geese. No lethal sun in the midday, but the weak, winter stuff there, so effete and polite and reserved. The size of the coffee and the depth of the rugs. Wooden fences and broad endless roads and winter in the lava lamp light.

Winter of the Google Images

The bluffs by which the river flow, the withered leaves from under which only spring up the trees and nothing else, the rocks and blue skies of rough, romantic country, the ferns and slender, shooting trees, the hawthorn wet in winter beside a winter-wet sidewalk, these, now these return to me.

How about a thousand-year old linden tree to live near? A bordered walk, some winter berries in the winter sun? How about a block and concrete city, tall about one, with its leisured places, polished wood and silverware? Oh dreams.

Oh sunlight in the glens, through trees falling, through green and shining white on waters rolling in a distant gorge! Again under the lamps it comes to me.

A blurry picture of a glen, a grey sky and a flat grey river winding, thickets of gorse, I see and then the sun arrives, the skies dramatic with white lightning in the arteries between the clouds. The gorse waves in the breeze leading down to the sea.

What a wild desire now for nature, for some hot day among the cliffs and bowing grasses, a flat rock with its lizard, the slope ascending and ascending toward small pines. The gorse seen from this vantage hides darknesses that lead away, under the hill and beneath the roots of pines, away, and sloping down the moist, the closeness of the earth, the dryness eventually, and down away, on rock which opens up from fissure forward to a standing cave where drip the drops of water down, and down along a winding, gurgling channel on a slippery ledge, a tunnel shrinking all about toward some light which brightens, grows a shaggy outline at the end, and dazzles into sun on the blue sea below. Emerging at the summit of the waterfall, one could fly.

Russet

Or perhaps you will say sienna or auburn–shades of brown. The thing with computers is you don’t know what people are getting. The Sap Green and its hues have had a rough time on my screen at least. What I did was notice that my Alizarine Crimson and Burnt Umber were the least used tubes, so I was generous with them and added in a little white, mixing variously as I went along till it was all mixed totally.

Every time I look at it I think, “Where are you riding O Riders of Rohan?” I think it is the mountains, but I’m not entirely sure why. I had to chop off the bottom as it became irremediable, but thus the thing was saved–which is what I really do: rescue things from the abysmal.

This one was painted and was nothing at all, with some dismally failed pines. So I waited for it to dry thoroughly and washed it thoroughly and then came back in the foreground with burnt umber and perhaps something else. Katrina said it looked like another planet and for that I am grateful.

Not much reserve (the white part you don’t paint) but just enough, eh?

And here a variation for those of you tired of trees or of mountains, trees and mountains in the winter.

I call this one Winter of Trees & Mountains. You’ll have to imagine harder to get the russet in it, I suppose, since its inclusion in this category is entirely gratuitous.

Of Last Night’s Spleen

Receeding Stars

When all the stars have fled away
you will discover that no more
can gods come from the Milky Way,
but faceless wander pathless seas
without a guide or farther shore
beneath the feckless galaxies.

No constellations in the void
of shame and surreptitiousness.
And through it rumbling, unemployed
and rusting inter-stellar ships
guided in adventitiousness
by moldering computer chips.

We knew an age in summer times
when stars were ripening the fruit
during the secret midnight’s chimes.
Now frozen juice and circuitry
and sightless human eyes commute
on dimming quests of errantry.

Genesis 48

Anubis was the dog-headed Egyptian god. I’m sure Moses knew of him. I think of Anubis in connection with Genesis 48 because what happens is strange and I am wondering if we weren’t meant to laugh. C.S. Lewis, after some conversations with his wife who was Jewish, began to comment to people in letters that there is a lot of humor in the Old Testament, and that we often solemnly pass by it because of course we are being spiritual. And I wonder here if in this view into Jacob’s bed-chamber we aren’t being treated to a funny scene.

Jacob decides to adopt Joseph’s sons formally in order that they may have part along with the rest of the brothers in his inheritance. Joseph is pleased, bows down either to thank God or acknowledge the honor paid, or both. Things proceed. Then Jacob wants to bless the boys, and Joseph, competent as ever, brings them close all lined up for Jacob to bless the older with the right hand and the younger with the left. But the wily old man gets into his head to cross his hands at that moment. (This is great in Spanish: a Jacob se le da por cruzar las manos.)

No! says Joseph, and it is wrong (evil, but probably just wrong) in his eyes.

Hold on, says Jacob, I know what I’m doing. And we wonder. And then what he says about one becoming greater I take to mean that he is saying, or at least implying, that this is how God wants it.

Now we don’t really know if Jacob crosses his arms on purpose or on a whim, but being the rascal he is: cheater of his brother, wrangler with Laban, the family situation (another instance of humor, the child-wars of his silly wives?), and his grousing to Pharaoh, none of these things incline me to believe it was not a whim. But that’s just the thing: we don’t know.

How does Jacob know who will be what? What do you have in the text? Jacob knows it is going to work out that way because that’s what happened, that’s how the dice landed.

Does God play dice? Well, he at least participates in every cast of the dice, doesn’t he? The dice show what they do by the determinate council and causal foreknowledge of God, as the story of Joseph goes to some pains to demonstrate beyond all shadow of a doubt.

The story of Joseph! Who in all the Scripture save our Lord ever trusted and actually rested in the sovereign purpose and control of God more than Joseph? Surely not Jacob, who struggled with it all his life.

And here is Jacob playing at dice with the blessing and lecturing Joseph about it in the quiet of his bed chamber. I find it hard to think that in all this Moses is not also having himself a little joke. And perhaps you can say that there you have Jacob’s last ironic admission of what he struggled to internalize all of his life.

Unexamined Life In Bogotá

Today in Bogotá the sun was bright. The parks were full again, as many kids are on their long vacation while their parents are no longer. They have calendar A and calendar B for schools. B is like the USA, and A is like they used to have it for everybody. You get out during the summer with calendar A; the summer being when it doesn’t rain and there aren’t even clouds. Summer begins for the kids in mid-December and ends sometime in February. They also get a month or so in June or July with Calendar A. With Calendar B, they don’t get much at all.

* * *

The have this game they play on swings, the kids. They swing and kick their shoes off and see who kicks it farther. I don’t remember ever doing or seeing such a thing outside of Bogotá. I watch them and I think: if they would get off the swing and kick properly they could send the shoes really far. It never occurs to them. They swing and kick and get off and run back and swing again and kick. Are kids as smart as we generally were in my day? I look at the sorry lot–kids these days–and lean toward an emphatic NOT.

* * *

I went to our little mall to find my wife today, and it was full. Downtown yesterday was full; the skyway–the Tequendama Hotel complex that reminds me of the Minneapolis skyways–was full to bursting. People everywhere, kids, animals, congestion and confusion. They don’t really do a whole lot of observing traffic laws here, and the thing about it is that it also affects the way they transit as pedestrians. It is like being in a crowded mall in the USA, only everywhere and worse.

* * *

I went to our little mall–I say–because I thought my wife might be done shopping. It is a place of the comfort of commercialism. There are the theaters, the food court, the kid’s rides, the video games, the crowded banks, the obligatory supermarket (no mall here is without one), the McDonald’s even. These last are growing very aggressively here: saw two new McDonald’s on 7th, we have two of them (one very, very large and then the food court one) in the mall near church. The prices at McDonald’s are kind of steep, and anything they provide you can get better elsewhere for less except the fries. Anyway, I found my wife and helped her home.

* * *

Which reminds me of the fries: the fries here are good because the quality of the potato here is hard to beat. The informal fries that is. They don’t come out of a bag where they have waited frozen. They come from a recently operated upon potato. It is a land where the potato is held much in honor. I understand when McDonald’s wanted to come in they had a wrangle with the government because McDonald’s wanted to use its own potatoes and not the local stuff. That wasn’t flying with the ministry of Ag, I take it. For McDonald’s, I suppose, it meant a costly investment in research to find something and doctor up whatever they coat the fries with to make them taste exactly the same the world over. And now the restaurants are multiplying like earwigs. There is something you can always count on at McDonald’s, even here: the ketchup. Take my advice, avoid the ketchup like the pink sauce most other places here.

* * *

The service, I can say with some certainty, is as bad the world over. Never employ anybody intelligent enough to handle something as complicated as taking an order, making change, and putting fast food on a tray is their motto. Have. Never. Been. Attended. Here. With. Any. Alacrity. At. All. At a McDonald’s. Everywhere else you usually get alacrity. Not there.

* * *

What they do like is the ice cream of McDonald’s. Hard to get anything resembling creamy ice cream here–not that I’m one to eat it–and some years back it was hard to get any at all here. Now they do it more, and what they really like to do in malls is stroll around eating ice cream. And now with all these kids around, the sun so bright, it more or less as warm as it ever gets here, well, there was also today in Bogotá a lot of that.

The Twa Corbies and The Three Ravens

The Twa Corbies

1. As I was walking all alane,
I heard twa corbies making a mane;
The tane unto the t’other say,
“Where sall we gang and dine the day?”

2. “In behint yon auld fail dyke,
I wot there lies a new-slain knight;
And naebody kens that he lies there
But his hawk, his hound, and his lady fair.

3. “His hound is to the hunting gane,
His hawk to fetch the wild-fowl hame,
His lady’s ta’en another mate,
So we may make our dinner sweet.

4. “Ye’ll sit on his white hause-bane,
And I’ll pike out his bonny blue een;
Wi ae lock o his gowden hair
We’ll theek our nest when it grows bare.

5. “Mony a one for him makes mane,
But nane sall ken whae he is gane,
Oer his white banes, when they are bare,
The wind sall blaw for evermair.”

–Anon, found at this useful site.

The Three Ravens

There were three ravens sat on a tree,
Down a down, hey down, hey down
They were a black as black might be,
With a down.
The one of them said to his mate.
“Where shall we our breakfast take?”
With a down, derry, derry, derry down, down.

Down in yonder green field,
Down a down, hey down, hey down
Their lies a knight slain under his shield,
With a down.
His hounds they lie down at his feet
So well they do their master keep.
With a down, derry, derry, derry down, down.

His hawks they fly so eagerly
Down a down, hey down, hey down
No other fowl dare him come nigh,
With a down.
Down there comes a fallow doe
As heavy with young as she might go.
With a down, derry, derry, derry down, down.

She lifted up his bloody head,
Down a down, hey down, hey down
And kissed his wounds that were so red,
With a down.
She got him up upon her back
And carried him to earthen lake.
With a down, derry, derry, derry down, down.

She buried him before the prime,
Down a down, hey down, hey down
She was dead herself ere even-song time,
With a down.

God send every gentleman
Such hawks, such hounds, and such leman,
With a down, derry, derry, derry down, down.

–Anon.

Note to Self:

Need to live in a city where people are doing this:

And more: http://www.youtube.com/user/lutevoice (I love the way that dude plays the lute.)

Some Quotations

Among other things, the letters of C.S. Lewis are a good way to be put on to an awful lot of interesting books one might not otherwise have run across. But there is more, and in this recent binge through a few years of his letters I’ve found things such as this:

“No one ever influenced Tolkien–you might as well try to influence a bandersnatch. We listened to his work, but could affect it only by encouragement.”

And this one I specially prize:

“I am so glad you like Till We Have Faces, because so few people do. It is my biggest ‘flop’ for years, and so of course I think it my best book.”

I quite agree.

I’m in the third volume in which quite a bit of his views on inspiration are aired, and also his interpretation of the notoriously difficult parable of the unjust steward on page 1043.

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In order to finish a story I need a list of the kind of things stores and restaurants give away. Such as: ketchup packets, plastic forks, butter packs, chopsticks etc.

Any ideas? Any weird things you’ve ever gotten?

At one of the coffee shops here you always get a napkin and two coffee beans dipped in chocolate. Not weird but not usual.

The Top Shelf

What is this list? This is my list of astonishing romanticism and favorite books that I can at the moment remember. Books that are read and re-read even serially sometimes and what one most wants in literature because through them the old magic runs.

J.R.R. Tolkien
How did he know so astonishingly exactly what so many of us wanted most? Tolkien is my #1 reason for never wanting to have been alive in any age that would not have included the year 1977.

C.S. Lewis
Till We Have Faces is still my favorite book in all the world. But would I really have wanted ever to live without knowing the Chronicles of Narnia or Out of the Silent Planet? I would not. And OotSP I still like more than Perelandra.

Charles Williams
Some people read about Williams and here they find something too weird. I used to think I had no limits on that until I tried to read Rudolf Steiner. I draw the line at Rudolf Steiner, but Williams I find exactly right. His heroines are admirable. I just found a good price on and purchased his Arthurian poetry.

E.R. Eddison
His philosophy is pagan: aristocratic, high and cruel. But also vast, and where will you find a 20th century author writing a romance in flawless, rich Jacobean prose? I enjoyed his Styrbiorn the Strong, so Northern, The Worm Ouroboros is a great work (my review here) and the peculiar and illuminating Zimmiamvian Trilogy I shall read more than once. Eddison dreamed vivid, pagan dreams in detail.

Mervyn Peake
Rich and sometimes overripe, was Peake: romanticism fraught with shadows and derrangement. Slow move his stories, ample in detail, atmosphere and personage. His imagination gormenghastly is voluptuous in invention of a moulting absurd vast . . . satisfying kind.

Lord Dunsany
Now you ought to treat yourself at least to some short stories. I am about due to read the Queen of Elfland’s Daughter once again, I think his only novel. No great developer of character, Dunsany was poetic in his prose and situations and outcomes. Perhaps he may seem light. Fairyland is lighter than a feather on some days.

Kenneth Grahame
If you cannot read and re-read The Wind in the Willows, then there is not a whole lot of hope for you. You simply do not love magic or ordinary things enough.

James Stephens
The Crock of Gold. There’s a recording of it with an Irish reader and much better all the dialogue of the philosophers if you have the right pronunciation. Another pagan work, with the curiosity of being Irish. Stephens was very keen on Eddison’s work.

David Lindsay
The philosophy of Schopenhaur finds its John Bunyan in A Voyage to Arcturus. Amazing, startling often, madly strange. One day I’d like to read some others of his works. My review here.

Ursula K. Le Guin
I haven’t really enjoyed anything by Le Guin like The Left Hand of Darkness. The ideology is present but not much. If I liked books making points I’d probably like G.K. Chesterton better and I don’t get much of a kick out of his fiction. Le Guin takes us into a new world, and I love winter-bound Karhide, the way she tells the tale.

Susanna Clarke
Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell was well done. A great curiosity, what with the Age of Reason prose and setting for a long, dark, Celtic fairy tale. She doesn’t do things by halves when it comes to finishing a story out.

Kalevala-Beowulf-Morte d’Arthur
These are books through which the magic runs and ran of old. In Mallory you have the charm a paganized Christianity all full of magic. In the Kalevala and Beowulf a view of an old pagan world that can no longer be. Through these I find I long for that old sense of more.

This is for me the top shelf of fiction. You might throw in Dune–which never stood a second reading. I enjoyed the vastness and the twisting of it, but if the test is multiple re-reading, then it failed. Still need to get around to William Morris.

All Effects Are Legitimate

All effects are legitimate.

LEGITIMATE!, you see? ¡Luhgitimecht!
Luh-dgi-dammit, the sound there,
the overt suggestion undermined.

And so things were assimilated
in the clacking of the keys
typewriterwise. We now?

We now with other symbols/signs
juxtapositional in ways
that writing would have rendered
meaningless we type. We have now
the formality of formal fonts!

The ebb and flow of music
needs to be, ¿but is it anymore?

(Ususual that, ¿eh? Have it again
for the IIIrd time and the ¡IVth!)

The difference of exploiting
typesetting too–
too markedly ¿PERHAPS?– wuz this:
the music could be lost, and even was
PERHAPS, in tricks. Plain trix.

¡New trick! But just a tr¡ck.

Though Ez and the old boyz
I think were trying to PRESERVE
in the new-fangled way the old.
To add to add and shew–enhánce.

Have we degenerated down into effects
without the old mag¿c?

?Is that why @ the present
when the magíque is recovered
it must out through the way-it-used-to be:
in rhyme and formal verse¿

I think the problem always is
the one of diction–more easy
formerly to figure out than ¡n-OW!

What we would have gotten . . .

. . . had Tolkien not known how to tell a story.

I do envy them some of the things they can do in the illustrations. Like the style a lot mostly.

w00t!

Congratulations! Your piece titled Skaftna’s Doom has been accepted
into Yesteryear Fiction and will be published on our front page on
2/29/12! (It’ll still be available in our archives to link to or read
after that date.)

Editor’s note: Very elegant. I like this piece a lot! :)
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A Serious Character

Humphrey Carpenter’s long biography on Pound is indeed thorough. Most of the way through I think he knows how to handle Pound, and that is no small feat. It has to be ironic a lot of the time (I’d guess he picked up the idea from Eliot’s correspondence), but without forgetting which parts are serious. The rough bit in the biography is the whole stay in the bughouse. I wish it had not been done chronologically and had been executed more briskly. One understands how it sapped and finished old Ez.

Carpenter is good on his insights, and a thorough chap. His one grand opus remaining to me is the one on the Inklings which I shall get my hands on I trust before the month is out.

This reading of biographies is often a mixed thing. I did Blake not long ago and Ackroyd did a really good job of unsentimentally evoking the pathos of Blake’s latter days. It ended with beautiful lament, and Blake singing from the bed of his poverty. With Carpenter’s Pound it is something similar the sadness of the ending, but mostly unredeemed by any brightness. Not unmingled, then, I say, is the experience one has in reading biographies. Makes one reflect.

I did Ackroyd’s Eliot between the two and that was another thing: the unhappiness of most his life bursts into a happy ending which goes on with serenity to the grave. Give me an ending like Eliot’s, though Blake’s was beautiful. Pound’s, alas, was not.

Submitting Like a Fiend

The sonnet [No Resignation] disappeared, but the encouragement was needed and went down well. I have now submitted a whole lot of stuff and am working on a whole lot more in a mad, heedless way. Thanks to my new pal the snake-handler, I use Duotrope which is an awfully good idea and easier to use than Ralan. I still remember going to the library and poring over the Writer’s Market. If I get out of Colombia and settle into comfort in the USA and get two monitors to do this with, I’ll be all set.

If I get anything accepted. Last year for that for me was 2009, and that was a good year.

Thanks to Duotrope, I have found an interesting new sub-genre called Bizzaro. Think that might just be my niche. What else is the Cron. if not Bizzaro?

Bilbo and West

What happens to Bilbo Baggins in The Hobbit is that his reality is expanded. He is a silly, complacent, prosperous and unadventurous hobbit at the start. Then he goes on a journey where the perils increase, and he grows along with them till at the last he converses with dragons, experiences bitter personal rejection, lives through a great battle and has, in short, his perception of reality radically expanded. He knows more of malice, treachery and avarice as well as of goodness, loyalty and generosity than he had before. The polarities of good and evil he experiences are moved farther apart than ever they were in the Shire. An what is the result of this upon his character? He grows to a size proportionate with that reality.

That is one of the things we learn from The Hobbit, and one of the things we love it for: the splendors made available by the greater dimensions (elves and dragons and wizards). We are then perhaps ambitious to dare perils, but there is more: we desire to inhabit such a splendid world and this desire nourishes the soul so that it can grow to truly human proportions. For the lesson from Bilbo Baggins is that the soul even of a greengrocer (though he is not, he might as well be) is capable of nourishment and growth.

And without this? In the reduced world, all insured, government regulated, tamed, domesticated and bled of all risk what happens to our souls? They become proportionate to that reality. By seeking to reduce the reality of evil the reality of a corresponding good is reduced. For evil has no positive and independent existence, as any serious Christian can tell you. Evil is a parasite, a deprivation of good, and the worse it is, the better is the good it preys on. Both must be, you see; at least the possibility of evil must exist (what mitigates it finally I think is a maturity of Wisdom, or as Jonathan Edwards might put it, true virtue: cordial consent of being to being in general).

You cannot tinker with reality. What you do when you try is not to reduce it, but to ignore it, and to ignore a part of what you were meant to know is to put out an eye, cut off a limb or let the corresponding faculty in your soul atrophy. Which may seem comfortable if you have never used that eye or that faculty of soul. But the goodness of what is, the startling grandeur and bright color and sheer unmitigated glory of what is is not something a healthy soul will trade away once it has gained it.

So good is what is real that it leads us quite beyond the Middle Earth–this land of appearances and symbols. We find that this world will not bear an endless growing, and that it has been designed purposefully that way. Which is why, eventually, Bilbo has to sail into the West: he has exceeded the limits of Middle Earth being involved in something far beyond his being, and he now needs a place with a more piercing greater goodness.

And so I think it must be with all of them. With Frodo and with Sam because they bore the ring, but do you think that great fellowship in the West will be complete without Meriadoc Brandybuck and Peregrin Took? I do not think so: they grew too, and I would be surprised if they did not at last outgrow the Shire, Rohan and Gondor, Middle Earth itself.

And so the hobbit now with glory dressed
shall never fade, but sail into the West.

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