Responsibilities

Well, reading is getting off the ground now. When I first started, I was spending over 60 hours a week just getting ready and maintaining myself from week to week in this job. Now that I’ve put my foot down (I’m the kind of person who is of the opinion that if doing too much is too much then you have to stop–if it means cancelling the Sunday School hour or the evening study, I’ll do it). But now I have somewhat overcorrected and need to pull back. I have trimmed, for the moment, my schedule so I can deal with it and now I need to give it a bit of structure so that I am not ashamed in the day of doom.

So I got Strong’s. He really is magnificent. He had a quotation from Pascal today about piety–something about piety being the heart sensible to God. I’ve done the first chapter of him and with leisure eagerness press on.

Then I’ve got Bettenson’s Documents. The chap seems an Arminian the way he comments and selects, but it is nevertheless a good exercise. A controversy a day or so: nothing long, but with understanding and reflection.

Then I’m getting to the end of Baxter’s Saint’s Eternal Rest. He has warmth that I don’t often associate with Reformed writings. He’s what Lloyd-Jones was after when he promoted a return to reading the puritans, etc. Baxter’s latter chapters on meditations and the affections are really worthwhile, and I’m glad we have him in Spanish. Almost done–been at him in a gradual way for over two months, I think.

Am going to start reading on Polity, printing it out. The resources for all that are not as abundant in Spanish and I want more details and better information as I have sensed that understanding in that area is somewhat scanty here.

Nothing like surrounding oneself with books and reading a little of each. A bit like school, all this, what with it not being what I’d select of my own volition but associated more with duty–haven’t read that way in a long time. And it truly helps one regain a sense of growing and deepening and not just getting thinner and thinner and worse and worse.

Haven’t brought myself to read on counseling or marriage or all that tedious stuff, and not convinced I ought to, yet.

Good Listening

Ever listened to the Rev. Nick Needham? Try it. Worth it.

A bit more here.

Downtown

A good time downtown today, and one can’t always say that.

Lots of chaps standing around, staring around, talking idly and waiting for their bit of the emerald trade to come, approaching and at the monument to our founder, Jimenez de Quesada. A few shot suspicious glances and handled small paper packets, squinted at something small held up to the sun before their eyes and generally made of it all most shady business.

No book sales at the library (almost picked up a volume of Housman in English last time, but they wanted too much for the quality of the edition), so on to the big bookstore nearest, not the big bookstore farthest. There to my surprise, a Spanish translation of Das Heilige by Rudolf Otto–and the translation so good I might re-read the whole thing (I bought it for the library at church–another project).

Espresso Cortado con leche condensada (great idea; I’m a big fan) at the Starbucks equivalent where many an otherwise dignified gentleman lounged in the low, slouchy chairs. A walk up 7th from its birth at the center of Colombia along that pigeony, cop-benighted, vendor and cheater and beggar and scum cluttered sidewalk.

So, feeling buoyed, on to the part where the used bookstores lurk. Strange trade, all trade in this city no matter what. Into the big two-story center where there are numerous small stands, but no dice there. Passed the one called Merlin (like something in Dinkytown, only shabbier; need to return and invest some life there) to the disorganized great room where I saw lots of things but walked out with at last El Martin Fierro in a jolly decent edition. I’ve read Borges on it and have meant to do it, but haven’t been able to get ahold of the actual poem till today.

And then back out again, away in a great bus and pressed by Latins with no sense of space. Still managed to read.

A Game of Fundamentarlia

The Chron morphs!

The king spooned more of the mango papaya chutney onto his fried squirrel and tucked in. Art watched in horror. The coat of arms of his house was a flying squirrel, and this act of the king’s somehow struck him as an omen, though he was not sure exactly how. Could this lead to a civil war? Would the king’s son, Mikk, end up having a war with his own son, Tedd? Art groaned inwardly.

When he got out of the audience he ordered some steel-reinforced lace collars and weapons-handling classes for all his children.

. . . stay tuned.

A Point

A thought came to me when I was able to stick to and finish Kidnapped. The thought has to do with an inability recently to stick to and finish Walter Scott. There is an interest in the books that requires a certain steadiness than they don’t naturally draw from one and which the circumstances of life do not work together to yield. And so I think that I have many such hours of happiness with the works of Walter Scott if only I program him for large bits of time away and with relatively nothing else. Isn’t it the same sort of thing (Scotland aside, which is not exactly to the point except that it does seem to yield curious characters)? Very curious and varied characters put into a wandery plot that could use a bit more impetus.

Near Fusagasuga, Cundinamarca

We went to warm climate and stayed at a finca.

What is a finca? Well, it is a cross between a small farm and a country house. In Minnesota people have cabins, and here some people have fincas. The idea is to be away from the city, on a piece of land with fruit trees and such, and usually in warmer weather, though not necessarily so.

We went to one in warmer weather. I found a good place to read–so good I did all of Kidnapped. You wait for meals, you make notes and draw stuff, you read, and you stay up late talking. I stayed up late talking to old ladies, but I like old ladies fine.

Best part of it: reading a whole book. You know what my problem usually is? I can’t find a good place to read. A place with the comfort and out-of-the-wayness for one to stick to it for three hours at a time. Here I found more than one, and in this country, that is amazing. Another problem is when other people require me for activities: this instance had none of this.

Perhaps part of it was the crowd of old ladies made things generally peaceful. Being in the country certainly made things peaceful. The overgrownness of the place: rocks buried in parasites and ferns; mangos holding up orchids in the canopy, spanish moss; stands of the bamboo stuff (guaduas); the butterflies, the birds, the fact that for the first time since leaving the USA I saw a squirrel again; and the smells of cooking things, of the dampish smell of the permashade parts of a hot-weather building, of the grass and the breeze and the overripe fruit.

I live in the capital, the worst of Colombia. If I can get a residency and be a writer, my friend it’s a finca for me.

Childhood’s End, by Arthur C. Clarke

It is a myth. It is the same myth of the Space Oddysey 2001, the same myth of Carl Sagan’s contact. The myth they want to get across and which sustains them.

Odd.

The myth is evolution without the final twilight of the gods. The gods are well and as distant as the most original gnostic emanation. Working hard, yes, but fine and ok and running things with awe inspiring power and wisdom. And what is suggested along the very edges, the real overlords he deftly sets the thing up for (and beyond!) that is the real feat of imagination, and a great one.

Systematic Theology

I need to read theology. I just need to do it, and it is one of those things I’ve never been thrilled about. I need to learn to enjoy it.

Why read theology? The great reason is that if you don’t, you are more likely to lapse into your own emphases. One can see more things reading other things, but systematic theology tends to take you in comprehensive directions. It exists to give the comprehensive view and to put the emphases in order.

Another reason is that you have stuff you mean to investigate and somehow never do. I was made to reflect on my ways when in a bookstore recently: the chap complained that reformed types never seemed to want to talk about eschatology. I need to work that out, and I keep thinking I need to get on that, and I make slight progress here and there with what I study; but if I were to read a systematic theology I’d come up against it quicker, with something reasoned and organized, and make more progress.

You know, I have even thought: if I crash and burn and leave this and for some reason end up back in the academy, I think I would study systematic theology and specialize in hamartiology. Strange, isn’t it? No kidding though, it is growing on me.

So I think I’ll take Strong home and begin to plow my way through in small, steady bits.

Reading?

It is the only thing worth talking about, isn’t it?

Finished an Orson Scott Card book. I like his way of telling stories. I like the calm with which he goes into the action bits, how he investigates and exposes the biological bits, how he leaves out explaining the unnecessary.

He’s something of an odditiy with his catholics and never failing to mention Mormons. There are always extremely painful moments also calmly told, gory but never overwrought. A bit of the left and the right always mixed in, but for all that a reliable voice and reliably told story every time that I’ve listened to him.

Gave up on something by Condoleezza Rice. Interesting the assurance, but otherwise not interesting. It was about her family and her life and such.

Read a rave review by C.S. Lewis to Joy Davidman of Arthur C. Clarke’s The End of Childhood [Childhood's End, that is]. Have that now. Not done a whole lot of the old boy, other than his juvenile letters to Dunsany. I’ve read some of Lewis’s replies to Clarke’s mail and not formed a great impression of the man. But Lewis saw something in this.

Time to do some long, steadfast Russian novels too, it seems to me.

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Mondays and Tuesdays I stay home and study. And so I study all morning, and then I rest, and then I pray. And that is a good method. Because when you can no longer study well, and you have prayed, and everything is set for tomorrow, then you can paint again!

If only the wife would not interrupt my quiet by puking out her guts . . .

Monday Morning

One learns about oneself doing this. I love Mondays except for the fact that on Mondays I sometimes meet with people. My attitude is still give me study and meditation but not the people. People are just not as wonderful as ideas.

One day perhaps I shall be like Blake, and my song of Innocence will be, Great idea, who made thee? and then for the song of Experience: People, people, burning bright,/ in the jungles of the night.

Things I Have Not Given Up On Somehow Painting Eventually

Books I’ve Given Up On Recently

A Game of Thrones

It really is degraded. Made it a long way in, past the middle at least, and that’s saying something, and then the loan of the audiobook gave out. I found no interest in continuing. It is fantasy for postmodern sensibilities; no less, no more. I’ll say this, the guy can keep a story going. If I ever return to his stories, it will be with an eye to how to set things up and play them out. Maybe study the odd chapter, perusing.

After a while it gets predictable. People say it isn’t predictable, but I say it gets predictable: nothing good ever happens. Not a place to find much good, or true or beautiful. These things are not realities in Westeros, more like dead ends. One thumps the door to the world of G. R. R. Martin shut and steps into Borges and feels at once the sheer and sudden elegance in the mountains of a mind attuned to the good, the true and the beautiful. Better winds with the unrepentant Borges.

The Kraken

I think this is what they nowadays call an Urban Fantasy, a kind of magical realism on steroids or hallucinogens. So there are gods and London cops, and some kind of ax to grind against religion. Somebody seems to have nicked a giant squid and radio-man says it is therefore time for the apocalypse. I almost stuck with it just to find out if there is any coherent case against religion I ought to know about. The people talk like most of the English chaps I’ve met (not a lot of variety other than the parts of speech the F-bomb assumes, and it’s all bollocks), there is a lot of random and appalling violence, and lots of earnest nut-job weirdos threatening–if things get climactic–to become disturbing. Full of imagination, but of what sort of imagination?

Couldn’t even bring myself to wonder what would come next. One quarter of the way is all. Wonder more about what Harold Camping is up to, to tell the truth. Harold Kraken! Can it have been the Rapture? Suddenly no restaurant on planet earth is able to serve calamari . . . Will somebody please call the Metropolitan Police’s top-secret and unorthodox supernatural bureau?

You know, it was kind of interesting that he had characters who were able to get away with smoking in the non-smoking public houses of the gritty real world thanks to their magical powers.

Jerusalen–El Caballo de Troya

Not far at all into this one. Too much conspiracy. The nefarious CIA, the clumsy FBI, and some good guys who are not part of the power structure of the world–journalists I think, and renegade US Air Force pilots. Weighty stuff, and clumsy and supercilious. They have a time machine and are going to visit the first Century to look up Jesus. Found myself completely disinterested after the second chapter. Bet Jesus turns out to be a soft-headed liberal actively advocating international bailouts and more humane crucifixion. Spanish author, and a cheap sensationalizer to judge by the little I did. Maybe it was meant to be like some Tom Clancy thriller. Does he believe in universal health care? Not sure.

I want something comfortable, like Lewis’s planet books.
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Which is not to say I have not been finishing books. I have been finishing books.

Can’t think of anything you’d be interested in though. Am having a great time with de Maupassant–how does one pronounce his first name? Not much of a fan of French stuff, and the dialogue translates, as you can imagine, badly (or should it?). But he does things nicely. I might say he uses the right colors (or the colors well) for his subject every time, and all the parts draw together that way.

Finished a book on watercolors, am almost done with Blockley’s Interpretations, and am looking forward to getting more of similar interest and going through them. Learning to paint is frustrating, but it has its evenings.

Made my way for the first time and probably not the last time in my life through something by Peter Masters. This part of being a pastor holds little relish for me at the moment. Have been slogging through the Saints Eternal Rest with moments of attention. Has a good quotation on the affections there in the chapter I presently find myself in.

You know what is alright but being done with intermittency is Charles Williams on Witchcraft. A very interesting and useful book, but no high and inspiring argument. And speaking of intermittency, all the rest (Malory, Lewis, Scot–Waverley, Alter, others).

You’re not making Christianity better, you’re just making Rock ‘n roll worse

Just noticed it on Old Life. Priceless.

Wow

Wow

Wow

-John Blockley

Comment: not as easy as it looks. I am in awe of John Blockley.

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